The reason for the urge to fix and repair the truck, and pay off my house in a year. Well here's your answer. It was 10 years ago in July. Correct date is July 23rd, the day before the wedding anniversary of my second marriage (which ended in divorce). I was asked to leave, and rather than facing arrest (because I knew that's what would happen, it happened before) I chose to leave. Went and lived with my sister for 4 weeks. Long enough to get back on driving a truck. I was still in contact with friends in the area, male and female, alike. We all hung at Tony's house. Watching Tony work on bikes, while we (the guys) bugged the livin s**t out of him. Hey, what are friends for. A lot of amazing people hung out at Tony's. Most of us rode, some were just graphed in, handed em a beer and said welcome (or a cup of coffee). This hanging out is when the second wife and I met Barbara and Rose (mother and daughter, and Kellsie Rose's daughter). Had been friends for a few years. Well back to my living at my sisters for 4 weeks. I got back on driving a truck. And when home time came I had no place to go. didn't want to go to Tennessee cause I was hauling 48s and I could swing in there anytime. So it was back to the Central Coast of California. So I call Barbara, hey can I park my truck in your front door? And maybe when I leave I can take Rose on the road with me (everyone calls Barbara mom). Come on up, the doors open. Barbara hands the phone to Rose. I talk to Rose and told her when I was going to be up. A couple loads and I would final out in Bakersfield California, then head west on the 46 toward the coast. I had already eaten, and Rose was down in the garage (down stairs) so Barbara says go on down. Rose had it all set up. A fold up camping double bed, with an air mattress. Had beer in the down stairs fridge, and a TV set up with the cable hooked up. I was tired as it was dark when I got there, and fell asleep. I woke and Rose was gone. I stagger sleepily up the stairs to see Rose in the kitchen handing me a cup of coffee, callin my a sleepy head. I asked her where she went. Rose said she wanted to let me sleep, so I went back up to my room. Later that day (early afternoon) Rose asked me if I wanted to go with her. I said you drive. I planned on it was the reply. Good, don't want to look over a steering wheel until I'm ready to go. We get in Rose's Chrysler Sebring (that she looked so sexy in) and when she got ready to put the car in the D position I put my hand on top of hers. That's where it started. Well when it was time to leave Rose had her bags packed and in the truck the night before. Good God she was packin that truck up until midnight. We dated for almost 2 years. When I was ready to leave out, she was ready too. She met my family in Tennessee at a family reunion. My uncles and cousins fell in love with her because she crawled under the truck to fix the strap on one of the fuel tanks. They all said my kinda woman, can cook, AND work on a truck. Well with kids (two of my boys) and the daughter of the X, everyone of them pulling at me. And the daughter of the X filling my head with s**t, I felt like I had to run. And run I did. Rose has always been on my mind and in my heart for the past 10 years. She was there when I fell out of the truck and broke my wrist in front of her house on home time. She was the one who got me to the hospital, the orthopedic, and finally to surgery. When I came out of surgery and woke up I sat bolt upright and in loud voice looking around said WHERE'S ROSIE! The nurses had to calm me down. Flash forward to today. I'm not happy. Haven't been for about 5 years. I don't want the live in to be here in my home. She could leave tomorrow and it wouldn't bother me. Have you ever wanted an adventure, and wanted to run? That's what I am feeling. But there is my house. No I'm not going to sell it. Hell I couldn't afford to live in California and buy or rent a place. But still the need for the adventure. As it would happen I started really looking for Rose. I finally found her. She was on facebook. Good ol facebook. Well I watched her page for a week or more, told my kids. Kids said good. It was my youngest who said you won't know until you contact her. So I did. The way I left the last thing Rose said to me 8 years ago was YOU SOB..... So when I asked for a friend request on facebook I was expecting anything. You all know what I was expecting. But surprisingly it wasn't like that. She accepted my friend request. We have been talking for a good 2 to 3 weeks now via messenger. I'm sure Rose was/has been watching me on facebook too. She asked me about the live in. I told her all about it and how I feel. Told her that I haven't been happy for a good 5 years or better. I told Rose that I was stupid for leaving her. And told her the reason why. Told her that I had gone thru prostate surgery. Here with the live in there hasn't been any sexual contact for 4 years. The live in blames it on menopause, her back problems, and migraines. LOOK, I'm trying to keep this as civil as I possibly can. Cause let me tell ya, holdin all this s**t in makes a body want to cut and run real bad. Rose and I have been talking over old times on the truck. I ask her if she remembers/ed anything. Boy did she. Remembered everything. Remembered Rawlins Wyoming shut down for 3 days with an empty box in snow and ice. She put it this way last night. When we left you slid up the off ramp, and head back to the TA thru town. I told you I'm not sleeping in that truck another cold night. The dog dish with water froze with the bed blanket in it. I got the last room, 23, AND no pizza delivery Dam, didn't leave anything out She asked if I remember running across 6 lanes of interstate in Kentucky with a fire extinguisher to put the hay fire out on top of the horse trailer. Yep I do. And do you remember you (me) having to tell the 2 guys to calm down when I started unhooking the horse trailer then having the guy pull the truck away, and I got the horses out? Yep sure do. And I did, I told the 2 guys not to worry she's a farm girl and knows what she's doin. She ask to you remember the low boy high centering at the J in Texarkana? Almost forgot about that one. But I remembered. The one I really had to have the memory jogged on was the time Swift and their bad directions (old directions) going into the Corningware plant in NY. No place to turn around so I took the turn and moved the turn signal/street lamp a bit Yes cops were called, I explained and showed the cops the directions I was given, and given a warning by the cops. Then Rose brought up the being chased by geese at a Potlatch plant in Idaho when she took my dog Moose pee. Now that was funny Her words were on messenger, where the geese chase you at Potlatch. She brings up Silver Thorn Colorado going up to Steam Boat in a blizzard, and me turning around and going back down to Denver with no chains in chain effect conditions. So yeah Rose and I have been talking. Have you ever had a nawing in your gut when you want to be with a certain one? Well that's what I've been feeling, and thinking about Rose all the time. Going to bed with one of them grins that no one knows what you're grinning about. Well that's what I've been feeling. So do you see now why the need to fix the truck and pay off the house? I need that adventure. BTW Rose and I have been talking on messenger and she does a video chat, then hangs up right when I answer and the computer and her phone start to connect so we can talk. Makes me think that she really wants to talk but is afraid to. Hell after what I did, I can't blame her.