Why did I pick the pseudo I use?
This is a bit off-subject also--- but Cyrano, "I has to know," How did you happen to choose that particular name?
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I chose it for several reasons, Cyrille.
The fictional Cyrano de Bergerac of Edmond Rostand's play, which was brilliantly dramaticized by Jose Ferrer in the 1950 movie (he received the Best Actor Oscar for his performance), is someone to be respected. He does his best to control his temper even when dealing with fools (as a highly educated an intelligent man, he does not suffer them gladly), has no respect for rank and accord respect only where
he feels it is deserved, stands staunchly by his friends even when it is politically inexpedient or risky for him to do so, and walks his own way even when the authorities would dearly love to silence him by any means necessary.
He also feels unloved and unlovable most of the time, when to be loved for himself and not his swordsmanship or personal courage is his dearest wish. No one can convince him that there is more to being loved than having a fine physique and a pretty face.
He is almost congenitally incapable of seeing the love and respect others hold for him, particularly the fictional Roxanne. He suffers much unnecessary mental pain in his life because of this; including, as he discovers only as he is dying, the completely self-imposed and unnecessary absence of the love Roxanne would happily and eagerly have showered upon him had he revealed himself as the man with the feelings for her he expresses for the exquisitely handsome but inarticulate, dumb-as-a-post Christian, because he is positive Roxanne could not possibly look on Cyrano as a lover.
The real Cyrano Savinien de Bergerac was a true Renaissance man. He was a writer of good repute; it can be argued he is the father of the science fiction novel. He was a past-master swordsman in an era where that was a highly respected skill; he once took on a mob of 100-plus that was trying to kill a friend of his and routed them, killing 23 opponents in the process. Unlike Rostand's fictional version, however, while the historical Cyrano did have the biggest nose this side of Jimmy Durante he was beloved by his Roxanne and they lived happily together for years.
I know my way around fine steel, write half-well, do not gladly suffer fools (particularly in the matter of our Constitutional rights and the Second Amendment especially), and don't feel especially loved or lovable about 80% of the time. I feel I'm about halfway between the two, probably leaning toward the fictional Cyrano (which has not made my life a happy one). That's why I chose that as my pseudo.
I trust this answers your question.